As you can probably tell by the title... I've been sick for very long now. I've done countless testing, and the doctors are 99% sure I have either POTS or dysautonomia. Both are very similar diseases which CAN be cured with the right treatment. But it'll take a LONG time. Doctors are still trying to find the right treatment to put me on. And I most likely won't be able to go back to school until winter time or next year. If I owe you any art related things please either be patient or drop me out of whatever I joined, I still can draw but it is tasking for me to do. I get very tired and weak from being in sitting/standing positions and need to take frequent breaks when drawing. I will not be able to draw for 1-2 weeks because In 3 days I am out of my house and going to be staying somewhere else for a while until my family gains access of our new home and gets settled in :) RANT: Other than that I feel extremely upset with myself. I really was so excited for summer break because I was happy to finally get a break from school after being mentally drained from going to school. I had so many plans, and because I got sick everything got ruined. I couldn't even celebrate my 16th birthday because I was too ill to get out of bed. And now I'm officially classified as chronically ill and won't be getting better for a very long time. I'm super sad, and I'm spending every day on my computer mindlessly watching youtube.. I can't even do anything else because most of my stuff is packed up, I feel super sad and ill everday. I hate it but this is how I'm going to have to live my life now. I don't understand why bad things happen to me, I'm a good person, I have no irl friends for me to talk to either. I honestly wish I had more people to talk to, most of my online friends ignore me or leave me on read. I just wish I could be happy again :(
