context I'm actually freaking depressed LMAO and I feel bad I feel like I don't deserve the great friends i have i get hurt easily but i dont show it cause i dont like being called oversensitive so i pretend im fine and i do this all th time really i always seem energetic and happy but i really see my self as this annoying a-hole and i feel bad when i let others down cause of my shizzy attitude. i care more abt people than my own health and idk how I even get called entitled or attention seeking. the past is literally stuck in the back of my mind all the time and I wanna fix what I did wrong but I realize its too late either I lost friendships, nearly lost some and now we don't really talk:[ in real life most people see me as happy and crazy energetic but I don't always feel like that minus the fact I get harassed by my classmates like what? all my teachers say that they love my happy self but at this point IDK how to feel happiness i'm a mistake to my parents and a somewhat b to my siblings and i feel like my feelings dont matter so yeah..
creds to bright berry aka my bff
