[ …different - a galeemprise srp ]

Instructions

♩“ I hold you… I hold you closer than I ever knew. “♩ the cold winter air settled around a grey-blue warrior, fighting to get past his thick fur with it’s wavy, sneaky tendrils of cold. the freezing, yet smooth surface of thinky below galeemprise was reassuring— it was like an old friend was there to comfort him in these confusing thoughts. well, thinky wasn’t the best example of a friend, but he was special to ale, special in a way different from all of galeemprise’s other friends. different. that was often how the riverclan warrior’s emotions felt. it was how his world felt. it was all different. it was like seeing the world through a grey film. it was almost as if he was trying to decipher something that had come straight from the future. trying to decipher that was too advanced for him to understand. the night sounds of the desert bounced up and around, swarming around galeemprise’s head, buzzing and chirping and trickling and rushing. the cold didn’t help either. no amount of fur could protect a cat from the freezing temperature of a midnight desert, or the daunting, confusing something. this something was frustrating. it was constantly nagging him, and he often tried to chase after it, to try and understand it, but he just… couldn’t. this something was love. love. such a simple word for such a difficult concept. a weird concept, at that. the white-freckled feline had never understood love. it had always eluded him. he had tried to understand it, to keep it somewhere safe so he could unwrap it later, but it seemed like he didn’t really… get a chance to unwrap it. that it was just still there, deep inside of him, unopened and locked away. but he didn’t really mind it being lived away… he kind of liked it. well, if galeemprise was being completely honest, he didn’t like it… it made everything just so confusing. he had plenty of love for his mother and siblings, and he loved his friends aswell, sure, but the type of love he was worried about was the one he would see many cats share. or the type of love that others try to share with him. that type of love befuddled him— and no matter hard he had tried to decipher it, whether it was with sleipnir, or his friends, or himself, he could never figure it out, and how it would make you feel. and that’s when it hit him. maybe galeemprise didn’t understand this type of love because he had never been able to feel it before. and he probably wouldn’t ever feel it. he didn’t love anyone. galeemprise stood up at that thought, his chest lifting and fluttering as if a weight was lifted of it. a warmth spread throughout his body as he forced himself to press forward. he didn’t love anyone, and he didn’t need to. he wasn’t forced to. galeemprise could be himself. he could be different. he was different. ♩“ but I’m confused, I thought I’d recognize when love was true, but I’m confused. “♩ ahhh wow that was a wild rideee :00 so yup!! kinda like a gale realizing he’s aroace srp. he won’t really be able to have the courage to tell sprayserenity yet, since their having kits and he doesn’t want to put more stress on her ;) he may tell his closest friends and family though. or have someone try to help him find the proper name for his sexuality ( basically just someone telling him about asexuality ) ♩“ am I ready for love? or maybe just a best friend? “♩ credits : art : moi song : turning up // ajr ♩“ should there be a difference, do you have instructions? “♩