when i went to a party with my irl schoolmates, i saw nearly all of them changing clothes, applying makeup, showing off their expensive handbags, while i didnt. i didnt feel like doing it anyway, but found myself comparing to them and their crazy beauty things... they all liked JOJO SIWA and kept shouting 'KARMAS A B-' and screamed at the person who chose the music to play KARMA, while i didnt like it but pretended to... this led me to questioning myself and my gender, i couldn't decide if i was genderfluid or demigirl, cuz i am already a girl and growing up as a girl, so im not trans. since i like customising my avatar on games sometimes and my avatar on roblox IS a GIRLY GIRL and all that, im definitely not trans nor nonbinary. but one of my ocs is non-binary, but it doesnt mean im one.. but i know that my parents said i should be myself and not buy expensive handbags and all that, but when i asked them if i can change my gender to a boy, they said no, so i know that they dont really support LGBTQ+. one of my frens' parents even said that LGBTQ+ is inappropriate. Anyway after this loooonnnnggggg talk, i might identify myself as genderfluid or demigirl, i hope u support me with this as i continue to find out about myself...
uh Edit 23rd Oct 2024: im leaning towards the demigirl side now, but i havent quite confirmed everything yet cuz im completely confused by all this-
