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So. Yeah, I'm here, because frankly I think I messed up, and I'm giving my thoughts and opinions and I need to get this off my chest because the week this happened was just CRAP. And Leaf? Frankly I'm not surprised if you don't want to be friends again. I don't think we should either just after what's happened. I'm not sure if we should just because of all this in general. It's hard to say honestly. Yeah, I know you said wait a month, but please if that matters so much I'd appreciate if you just waited to read it because I need to get this off my chest because it's been eating away at me, and I need to explain the motives behind what I've done, and the like. First. I acted impulsively, and I'm sorry for that. I focused on something that was blown out of proportion and likely to be false when I really had left due to other reasons. I did leave in part due to the autism allegations, but I also spiraled out about it and focused WAYYY more on that than I should have. I feel like I was partly the cause for the snowballing. Admittedly, that's not the main reason I left. It was mainly just because Neon was. I already was falling out of the collab, and clearly with a rewrite I had no knowledge of or evidently no access, seemingly, I knew my days with the collab were over. And I do appreciate the apology for your initial response, but that TRULY shut me off further and made my confident about the decision I had made. At this point, I sympathize with both of you, Neon and you. Neon clearly shouldn't have pushed himself so hard and I can see how crushing a years-in-the-making project falling apart within days can be. But I do want to note that Neon was wanting to push themselves, and they wanted to stick to it. Even if it did take nine months. Look, idk. I just am sad to see all this fall apart and I know I had a hand in it somehow. I'm sorry it happened, and I'm sorry I took crap at face value because I hate myself for acting so impulsively. I'm sorry, Leaf. I'm sorry, everyone. I'm not refollowing because frankly I care not about my appearance on this site in terms of follower count. I really did enjoy the platonic connection we had and it's sad to see it fall apart. Just...... Yeah.