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Yep this is final. Nothing in life really has been really been doing it for me, for example; scratch. I do tend to try and make things but Im always demotivated and struggle to put effort into things, and it seems I never improve at all on things. in fact, when I was on my account, Fortniter13270, I felt like I was doing better, but as I got older I got more reluctant into putting in the work into a remix, or rather work at all. I've really been stumped and in the dumps lately. Im not even able to complete roblox projects. That Answers some of your Qs or atleast whats something keeping me down. Secondarily, I struggle with emotions. Like A lot. I can never manage to hang on to certain people due to them, eventually being forgotten by them due to mistakes or forgetting about talking to them. Im always gloomy but I try not to show it, Im very neutral or either whiney or mad. These emotions when they mix together stir up a frustration in my mind, this making me go into a breakdown or laying with my thoughts in bed. I can't manage to hold on to relationships due to my corrupted mindset, but I try to fix it, In fact I think I've quit doing relationships for now on. Past Incidents and Recovering I've done some horrid things when going through change, I was quite a weirdo and this led to not only losing a group of friends that I'll never forget, yet I'll hold a grudge towards them for what they've said, but two groups, the second I absolutely despise and dislike. I've been trying to recover old friends whether not related to the groups since I miss the past, or whether they were a close person I knew in one of those groups and being forgiven of my actions. This is still a struggle to do if you're not already blocked from a percentage of them, For the rest that I used to like, they either turned me into a laughing stock, Im a laughing stock in a community, I really am uncomfortable about this, a community im not even safe going into or playing in making me a laughing stock and a target. It's upsetting when one thing can ruin a lot more than just friendships. Acedemics and Employment, Now this one isn't as big of an issue, I am struggling a little in some classes, seems a little odd posting this in may saying the year is coming to an end, but this doesn't mean finals are around at the time this is posted, and the next year is always around the corner. Employment-Wise, Im still unemployed, sounds out of pocket but I really wanna get a job so I can have some freewill someway, yet me being the youngest of my family leaves me on the shortend, my family is always busy and I don't even have Identification to get a Bank Account, henceforth, not being able to be employable. And I failed my first Permit test which was really upsetting. -Jay
