So, I always pretend to be happy so much that it's now my norm to hide any other emotions, and I am so tired of it, yet I can't break that habit. Lately, too much has been happening to me that I just break at school and my teachers and friends just look at me shocked and stunned, like they have no idea how to deal with this. Before anyone says this, I know it's not ok to hide your emotions but, I've been doing it for so long that I don't know how not to hide my emotions. I'm just tired of being the happy, perfect-life friend that everyone loves when I know only 3-4 of my friends irl truly care about me. Even my family is used to seeing me happy. My mother is a psychologist and she says this is a phase but it's not. I've been feeling like this for about 4 years, 7th grade up to now. I'm tired of pretending.
